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17th September: My God, Thou knowest I have need of him to love Thee.


20th September: My God, give him to me so that I may give Thee my heart. My God, let me see him only once more. My God, I engage to give Thee my heart. Grant me what my love beseeches. I will give what remains to me of life to Thee alone. My God, forgive me this despicable prayer, but I cannot keep his name from my lips nor forget the anguish of my heart. My God, I cry to Thee. Do not forsake me in my distress.

21st September. “Whatever ye shall ask the Father in my name Lord, in Thy name, I dare not. But though I no longer formulate my prayer,