Poems (Bibesco)/XX

XX
Sometimes you say to me "When I am dead———"     And then I smile ——As if you were just civil and well bred     And imbecile;And saying something like "the pleasure's mine———"Or "Yes, I think to-morrow will be fine."But I last night, I dreamt that you were dead,     I did not weep;True tears, alas! will always stay unshed,     They are too deepTo reach the smooth wet surface of the eye—That shallow mirror, where all sorrows die.
It seemed to me I felt the frozen day     When I would wake,With pain, itself benumbed, too tired to flay;     Nor could I takeA warm and living hour within my hands—Despair itself had ceased to make demands.And now your arms are round me once again;     And one small tear Marks the forgotten lesson of my pain.     I cannot hearThe foolish rumblings of mortality;For you, my love, are Heaven and Hell to me.