Poems (Cary)/Times

TIMES.
Times are there when I long to knowThe mystery beyond life's wave,Even at the awful price, to goUnmated through the grave.
Times, when our loves and hatreds, allOf level vast, or skyey steep,Seem only like the meadow wallA very lamb might leap.
Times, when within my heart the grainOf faith into a mountain grows,As suddenly as in the rainThe bud becomes a rose.
Times, when in fancy's shining foldJoys out of heaven are drawn to me,As stars in twilight's net of goldOut of the sunset sea.
Times, when rebellion so aboundsWithin me, I, though Satan's markWould twist his fiery wings to crowns,And glorify the dark.
Times, when I feel myself a wreckAnd hear a voice say in my heart,"Better a mill-stone round thy neck,Than being what thou art."
So am I driven upon life's stream,By every wave, by every breeze,From good to ill—my life a gleamBetween the darknesses.