Poems (Mary Coleridge)/Poem 9

IX THE OTHER SIDE OF A MIRROR
I sat before my glass one day,And conjured up a vision bare,Unlike the aspects glad and gay,That erst were found reflected there—The vision of a woman, wildWith more than womanly despair.
Her hair stood back on either sideA face bereft of loveliness.It had no envy now to hideWhat once no man on earth could guess.It formed the thorny aureoleOf hard unsanctified distress.
Her lips were open—not a soundCame through the parted lines of red.Whate'er it was, the hideous woundIn silence and in secret bled.No sigh relieved her speechless woe,She had no voice to speak her dread.
And in her lurid eyes there shoneThe dying flame of life's desire,Made mad because its hope was gone,And kindled at the leaping fireOf jealousy, and fierce revenge,And strength that could not change nor tire.
Shade of a shadow in the glass,O set the crystal surface free!Pass—as the fairer visions pass—Nor ever more return, to beThe ghost of a distracted hour,That heard me whisper, "I am she!"